Things I Am Not. Things I Am.

I am not soft, or quiet or gentle.
I am not graceful or poised, nor am I a lady.
I am not complacent or ignorant, but I am not a big-picture person.
I am not good at long distance anything - friendships, relationships, correspondence.
I am not a fan of pomp and circumstance, and I avoid all types of ceremony.
I am not having an easy time managing my time, but I am not giving up yet.
I am not certain how I got to where I am; I am not certain as to where I want to end up.

I am a bundle of awkward angles and poking elbows.
I am a lumberjack in high heels and well-tailored pants.
I am ambling, tripping over my own feet, and making exclamations that would make truckers blush.
I am the leaver of long, arduous, repetitive voice mails, and I am wondering why someone allows me (and pays me) to do this.
I am lazy and unmotivated, and I am disappointed in these attributes.
I am well read, in tune with pop-culture, and trying to stay on top of social media.
I am learning who I am. Who I was. And who I will be.

Always, Sometimes, Never

I always...
* dream about my future-house.
* hit the snooze button. I need those 10 minutes.
* wear a scarf, regardless of the weather. It's an accessory.
* have a bottle of water and chapstick with me.
* get excited when Mike comes home.

I sometimes...
* want to quit my job, cut off my hair and move to Oregon.
* get too excited about gossip.
* idealize other people's lives. Then I take a minute and realize my own is pretty good.
* wear slippers at work.
* wish for Winter. And in Winter, I sometimes wish for Summer. The grass is always greener.

I never...
* arrive on time to a casual event. Important events, however, I am early.
* feel totally put together.
* wear any jewelry beyond my wedding rings.
* leave Target without buying something. I love Target. A lot.
* thought I would be the kinda girl who loves shoes...but, here I am.

(Thanks to wishcake for the idea!)