Thursday, April 16, 2009

It's not easy being green.

I'm feeling greenish.

This week has gone by at an alarming rate...which is awesome. It's been a terrible week - full of stress and anxiety and reprimands. My boss was on the warpath - which made me more anxious to get a new job.

I applied for a position at the community college. The New Student Enrollment Specialist. It seems to combine the work I do now (data entry, database and information management, administrative stuff) with higher education, which I've done in the past. It also reduces my commute by like 2 hours. And has better benefits! And more vacation!
Now, if I don't get this job, I may very well have a mental breakdown, because I won't know what to do next. This job seems like it is a perfect fit. But I don't want to jinx it.
They don't start reviewing applications until 4/20/09. Not soon enough.

The wedding is no longer creeping up on me, but sprinting full speed. And to be honest, I'm not all that unprepared. With the exception of my hair. I just don't know what I'm going to do about my hair.

I wish I knew where I wanted to go with this blog. It feel so...boring. So sloppy.
There are so many out there that either chronicle exciting social lives, or document recipes and cooking techniques, or share cool craft ideas, or invite us to read about a weight-loss journey. And they are interesting. Mine is...blah. Sort of like my life at the moment.

Truly. I have a wedding coming up. Big deal. My job hurts my heart because I want so much more, but don't know where to find it. I live with my parents in an Illinois suburb. And I don't generally share much about my relationship, good or bad, because I feel like that's private. That's Mine.

Right now! I am stagnant. I am stuck in a silly rut, and I feel like I will soon get out of it. Unfortunately I don't know how soon. Bear with me. I'll get interesting soon enough. Swear.


  1. You'll figure out your blogging voice soon enough. You already have great writing, so that's a good start.

  2. Don't worry about your blog... you can see mine how lame it was (is??). You will come out of that!

    I wanted to share my personal stuff in my blog as it is pretty anonymous. But the prob is my hubby found about it and reads it... not that he will prevent me from writing anything - just feels odd...

    I am crossing my fingers for the job - Hope for the best

  3. I know... I am constantly reminding myself that he is 8 years younger to me + I am married..

    Talk about forbidden fruit!

  4. Ashley, I think everything can be interesting! Your life and your blog don't have to be about dramatic, thrilling escapades. Sometimes it's fascinating just to get a peek into the little moments of someone's life. Sometimes the tiny moments are so much more interesting than the big picture.

  5. Good luck on your job application :)

  6. I think your blog is already interesting! We are in such similiar situations (English degrees doing data entry, Illinois suburb, SOs named Michael). Good luck on your journey! I can completely relate!

  7. Thanks for visiting our blog - I totally feel the same way about blogging sometimes. Like, really? I have nothing exciting in our lives to share. But, I share anyway. And, I find it to be a good release.

    I'm from western Illinois - in the Quad Cities. It's always fun to come across people from your neck of the woods. I'm not sure what suburb you are from, but we are up in the Chicago-land area pretty often. My bil and sil live up there, and I enjoy the shopping. =)

    I've added you to my reader.

    And, good luck with the job. I hope you hear back soon. In my last position, I was craving a new job so bad. I felt totally unfulfilled and frusterated. It gets better. I promise.

  8. Blogging is like playing a video game. You do it and do it and do it and you never get better. One day, you see that you are better all at once.

  9. Hello!

    I went to MCC a while ago. I used to live in LITH for 12 years. Very familiar with the area. I now live in Richmond, IL.



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