(image from film noir photos)
Here's the thing...I've only ever considered myself a "smoker" for like 6 months when I was 19/20. And up until about a month ago, I didn't smoke for over four months.
I smoke rarely - usually when a friend offers, or I'm out drinking. Until recently, I hadn't bought a pack in ages. But I still will every-so-often have a cigarette. And it never ends well.
I like the act of smoking, the social aspect, something to do with your hands, but after I finish it, I immediately regret it. My fingers and hands smell, my mouth tastes gross, and worst of all I have a headache. Without fail.
So...Duh, I need to make sure I cut this out forever.
No, one cigarette per month isn't going to kill me, but it is going to give me a headache.
Yesterday morning, I had my last cigarette on my way to work. I haven't really wanted one, just a little. I think I've just wanted the break from work. But most importantly, I turned down the offer to have one.
I've tried to make the ruling that I was giving up cigarettes FOREVER before, but time always passes and I managed to talk myself into having just one.
(image from Bleu Bird Vintage - what a badass blog!)
But here's the thing! I have this wonderful list that gives me willpower! and self control! Or at least that's what I'm hoping it will do once I start the harder goals (specifically those that are exercise oriented).
This thing keeps me accountable, especially since I know you are watching, Internet friends.